Holding On To Smoke

	  		    

    C#m                 A9 
I'm tired of feeling comatose 
     C#m                 A9 
I've lost the me that I loved most 
    C#m                 A9 
I'm barely holding onto smoke 
     C#m 
I'm barely holding on to smoke! 

( C#m  A9  E  B5(9) ) 
( C#m  A9  E  B5(9) ) 

E                         C#m 
 I'm not addicted but I'm not clean 
A9                        B5(9) 
 Why do I do this to myself on repeat 
E                         C#m 
 So disconnected from my own reality 
A9                      B5(9) 
 Am I man or machine 

     C#m                  A9 
If I give, will you take? 
     E            B5(9) 
As I lie for the taste 
     C#m           A9 
I just fuck it up 
     E            B5(9)  A9 
As you lap it up 

E 
(Go!) 
                  C#m 
Through flesh and bone 
          A9 
I walk alone 
(Go!) 
If I run will I fade away 
 B5(9) 
'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind 


          C#m           A9 
In all my pride, all my shame 
      E                B5(9) 
I find strength enough to show you 
      C#m              A9 
I may bend but I won't break 
           E 
'Cause I define who I 
   B5(9) 
Define who I become 


E                      C#m 
 I miss the me that I have not met 
A9                     B5(9) 
 Choking in silence on the words left unsaid 
E                      C#m 
 I feel a sickness for a home I've never been 
A9                        B5(9) 
 And I exist in black and white but now I'm seeing red 

C#m 
 I built a shelter in complacency 
F#m                     B5(9) 
Locked myself in and set fire, And threw away the key 
C#m 
Too scared to live but I'm afraid to die 
A9 
So am I living or am I just alive? 


         C#m        A9 
In all my pride, all my shame 
        E                B5(9) 
I find strength enough to show you 
      C#m              A9 
I may bend but I won't break 
   E            B5(9) 
I define who I who I become 
          C#m              A9 
'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose 
     E               F#m 
I've lost the me that I loved most 
     C#m              A9 
I'm barely holding on to smoke 
       E               B5(9) 
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on 


C#m 
Broken! I'm holding on 
E 
Driven! To right the wrong 
C#m         A9                   E 
Silent! Connected yet I feel so separated 
C#m 
Fallen! Through flesh and bone 
E 
Frozen! I stand alone 
C#m                     A9        E 
Deafened! In silence the voice remains 

          C#m             A9 
Behind my eyes, beneath my rage 
        E               F#m 
I was struggling to get through 
       C#m              A9 
Out of time and out of faith 
E                   B5(9) 
I define who I become! 

         C#m        A9 
In all my pride, all my shame 
        E                B5(9) 
I find strength enough to show you 
      C#m              A9 
I may bend but I won't break 
   E 
I define who I 
B5(9) 
Define who I become 
          C#m              A9 
'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose 
     E               F#m 
I've lost the me that I loved most 
     C#m              A9 
I'm barely holding on to smoke 
       E               B5(9) 
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on 
    C#m                   A9 
I'm tired of being human, tired of being numb 
    E                    B5(9) 
I'm waiting for the holy ghost to come 
   C#m                    A9 
So save me from the webs that I have spun 
    F#m         B5(9) 
I'm holding on, holding on 
F#m 
I'm holding on 
     B5(9)    A5 
Holding on to smoke!