Understand

 Em 
Girl, I hope you understand 
 C 
I wanted to hold your hand 
            G                                B 
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then 
   Em                              C 
And you knew I fell for you but you 

Just broke my heart in two 
       G 
I was sad, mad and broken on my bed 
 B 
Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head 

       Em 
I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med 
            C 
When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead 
            G 
And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat 
            B 
I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again" 
      Em 
So instead I took my pen and started writing evidencе 
             C 
And when I started making sensе 

I found that I had reached the end 
          G 
Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends 

You wanna bet you're just pretend? 
               B 
You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing 

You're not shit 
    Em                               C 
I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did 
          G                                B 
I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived 
              Em 
They were my neighbors, razor blades 
                C 
And different flavored pills I hate 
              G 
Therefore I'm not sure, leave my last straw 
        B 
I'm so glad, stuck in the past, I said that 

 Em 
Girl, I hope you understand 
 C 
I wanted to hold your hand 
       G                                     B 
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then 
Em 
So far I never held you with my arms 
C 
So it's hard to be the one you aren't 
G 
With instead filled with anxiety 
B 
Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be 

Em 
Somebody 'cause it's not me 
                                         C 
I'm not used to all the talk, it was an introvert 

That had converted feelings in the writing 
        G 
Used to cope with all my problems 

Using notes and lots of rhyming 
         B 
Used to hope for better days whenever 

That's 'bout make me crying 
         Em 
I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back 
C 
To the times I would try be the guy the people know 
       G 
I was fighting with the demons hiding far beyond my eyelids 
       B 
On an island full of violence in my head that I could pilot 
Em                                       C 
Oh, the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray 
                               G 
I feel it coursing through my veins 
                       B 
I said before I'm not okay 
                        Em 
But you don't listen anyway 
                               C 
You know I tried, you turned away 
                 B                G 
You straight up lied right to my face 
                                B 
You fucked my life, ruined my day 

But you don't know, so I'll say 

Em                            C 
Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did 
(You don't know so I'll say) 
G                          B 
Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it 
(So I'll say) 
Em                            C 
Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did 
(You don't know so I'll say) 
G                          B 
Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it 
(So I'll say) 

 Em 
Girl, I hope you understand 
 C 
I wanted to hold your hand 
        G                                    B 
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then 
Em 
Too bad I know I can't wake up 
           C 
Because I lost my weight and you don't give a fuck 
       G                                   B 
About me, this could be a dream, I can't see 

The things that you see, so please, oh 

 Em 
Girl, I hope you understand 
 C 
I wanted to hold your hand 
       G                                    B 
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then 
Em 
You know I'll play along you 
C 
Were my home I wrote you songs 
                G 
And now you're dead to me effectively 
   B                              Em 
Removed yourself outside my dream