This Grudge

	  		VERSE1: 
Cmaj7     C     Cmaj7   C        Em      C 
fourteen years thirty minutes 15 seconds I've 
Em         C 
held this grudge 
Cmaj7   C    Cmaj7   C                    Em     C  
eleven songs 4 full journals, thoughts of punishment  
Em       C 
I've expended 
 
VERSE2: (same chords) 
not in contact not a letter such communication telepathic 
you've been vilified, used as fodder, you deserve a piece of every record  
 
BRIDGE:  
     F                C 
but who's it hurting now? 
F                      C 
Who's the one that's stuck? 
F                   C 
Who's it torturing now  
                 G 
with an antique knot in her stomach 
              C          F 
I want to be big and let go of  
       G                  F 
this grudge that's grown old 
          C              F           G           F 
All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone 
              C           F 
I want to be soft and resolved  
            G       F 
clean of slate and released 
             Am            G      F   C 
I want to forgive for the both of us
 
VERSE3: 
Like an abandoned house dusty-covered furniture still intact 
If I visit it now, do I simply re-live it somehow gratuitous 
 
BRIDGE: 
But who's still aching now? 
Who's tired of her own voice? 
Who's it weighing down with no gift from time of said healing 
              C          F 
I want to be big and let go of  
       G                  F 
this grudge that's grown old 
          C              F           G           F 
All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone 
              C           F 
I want to be soft and resolved  
            G       F 
clean of slate and released 
             Am            G      F   C 
I want to forgive for the both of us
 
INTERLUDE: 
         Am          C   G  
Maybe as i cut the cord veils will lift from my eyes 
         Am             C           
Maybe as i lay this to rest dead  
G 
weight off my shoulders will rise 
 
VERSE4: 
Here i sit, much determined ever ill-equipped to draw this curtain 
How this has entertained, validated and has served me greatly ever the victim 
 
BRIDGE: 
But who's done whining now? 
Who's ready to put down 
This load I've carried longer than I had cared to remember 
 
Chorus: 
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old 
For the life of me I've not known how to rest this bygone 
I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released 
I want to forgive for the both of us